Stuff...

l'm still trying to figure out my blogging comfort level. For a long time l contemplated starting another blog to write about all the personal stuff but then l figured l'd never keep up. So l'm still in the process of finding that balance. I consider myself an introvert. I'm a private person and need to work things out in the inner before verbalising them and l'm not sure whether l want this blog to be that inner. I considered keeping this blog just business like but l can't do that either because l am passionate about MiniTribe and put so much of myself into the business that it wouldn't be fair to myself, the business, my customers or my readers. So l'll get there. Hopefully l'll get there fast because all the draft blogs l wrote and never had the courage to publish are building up fast.

One of the contributing factors to this has been that some weeks back I had an epiphany. It wasn't some New Years resolution or anything, it was more like the 'you wake up and BANG it hits you in the face' type. Ok, so perhaps not that dramatic, but you get the gist.

Now everything looks different. It may very well have been a result of a number of events or non-events and a long coming thing but the penny certainly dropped overnight. I pretty much woke up and realised alot of things, some of which I'm still learning to accept and make sense of.

Most importantly l've learnt to let go. That has been a huge step for me. We're talking posessions and people. The people part may sound bitter but it certainly isn't. It's more about me making peace with myself. There are only so many steps a person can take and l've pretty much exhausted all my steps. The waiting game never goes on forever. And time, we all know you can never bring back time. Then there are people you hardly see, speak to yet your hearts are one, soulmates l guess. Life is beautiful and l refuse to waste it.

Without knowing it, Monsieur has taught me so much. Love, Patience, Forgiveness, Kindness. That man has the virtues of a saint... sometimes...ok most of the time.

Now l know there is ALWAYS an alternative.

I will and l can but not right now is ok too. Some things can wait and others will have to give.

I'm not afraid to walk away and start over again so long as my family is with me. In fact this is one of our plans, leave with nothing but a suitcase and live in a foreign country or two.

So in short we've been decluttering - our homes, our heads and our lives.